(Quote is by Spencer Reid from Criminal Minds)
This image was partly inspired by the book Tears of Tess by Pepper Winters. It’s a very dark and disturbing book, and I probably won’t be reading the second one in the series. Not because it’s bad or anything, I just prefer novels with a lighter plot. But the book did leave a very strong impression on me (probably because I haven’t read many others like it). It’s about a girl who goes to Mexico with her boyfriend, where she ends up kidnapped and sold as a sex slave.
Here’s an excerpt from a summary I found on Goodreads:
Kidnapped. Drugged. Stolen. Tess is forced into a world full of darkness and terror.
Captive and alone with no savior, no lover, no faith, no future, Tess evolves from terrified girl to fierce fighter. But no matter her strength, it can’t save her from the horror of being sold.
Like I said, the story’s a little disturbing, but its written beautifully and it will definitely stick with me for a long time.
Photoshop brushes are by http://www.obsidiandawn.com
*I’m not sure if you can tell, but that’s supposed to be the golden snitch hovering above my hand*
Things are getting pretty busy over here. We only have one week of classes left before the finals. I’ve been staring at the pile of quizzes and reports on my table for the past hour, wondering how I can get through them all in time. I’m proud to say that I managed to put quite a dent in my checking load these past few days, but there’s still a lot left to do. I’m on the verge of breaking down but I just keep reminding myself that we only have a few more weeks before the holidays, and I can finally relax. I just need to hold on for a while longer. There’s a nice reward waiting for me at the end :)
I just realized I only have 10 self portraits left to do for this project. (Although there are only 4-5 weeks left in the year, so I’m still really far behind.)
When I conceptualized this photo, I was aiming for something completely different. This was actually an outtake. I was playing around because I needed some shots of the fabric moving. But when I was scanning the photos, I realized I liked this one more than the “real” shots I took. I looked so stiff and uncomfortable in the other ones while this one seemed more naturaly and flowy. It’s probably because I wasn’t too focused on having to pose, I was more concerned about getting a good shot of my dress. (I did have to get my right hand from another photo though, since it didn’t look as graceful in the original after I threw the fabric.)
Photoshop brushes (hair, birds, mist) are from http://www.obsidiandawn.com
I’m finally uploading this. I don’t know why I keep forgetting about it. I shot and edited this around the second week of October, but for some reason I never got around to posting it. My parents were on a Japanese cruise back then, and I was jealous so I decided to do a little cruising of my own – with the power of Photoshop of course. I figured it would be lonely to go by myself, so I asked Mr. Bear to come with me. He’s appeared several times in Ezra’s and my past 52-week projects, and I figured it was time for him to make a comeback.
I’m always excited to shoot and edit my self portrait around this time of year. As you know, I have a slight fascination with darker conceptual images. I try to stay away from too much blood and anything too gruesome, but I love eerie and haunting pieces.
I actually had something else planned for this year. For the past few years, I’ve been uploading some dark stuff around Halloween, so this year I wanted to do something a little lighter. But after shooting and editing it, it didn’t feel right. I’m still going to upload it, but I decided that it shouldn’t be my Halloween SP. So as soon as I got home last night, I shot and edited this.
I asked Ezra what she thought and she said it was scary and perfect for Halloween. I was happy until she told me that she’s mostly creeped out about the thought of having five of me around. Hmph.
Another origami-inspired self portrait. I had to make several of these paper planes for the little kids during our origami exhibit last month. I figured I might as well turn the experience into something useful.
I’m still 5 weeks behind on this project. I know I keep saying this, but I do have a few pictures ready for posting, I just keep forgetting about them. Gah~
My title are lyrics from B.o.B’s song called Airplanes.
I dropped the ball on this project again. I was doing pretty well too T__T I thought I would finally be able to catch up, but things got really busy at work again so I had to focus on that. Also, I suffered from food poisoning for a while and I barely had enough energy to get up, let alone edit photos. Fortunately, I’ve recovered completely but we all know how difficult it is to continue doing something once you stop for a bit. I need to get back on track and regain some momentum. I can do this!
I really like the quote that inspired this photo. I may be under a lot of pressure at the moment, but I’m beginning to realize that it’s all about the attitude. I may not be a naturally optimistic person, but I’m doing my best to see the good in every situation. There are loads of things to do at work, but I think I’m handling it pretty well. I’ve been enjoying making To-Do lists every day. It helps me focus on what I need to finish and prioritize important tasks. (Maybe I should include posting my self portrait in these lists to help me catch up.)
Quote in the title is by Lou Holtz