I just realized I only have 10 self portraits left to do for this project. (Although there are only 4-5 weeks left in the year, so I’m still really far behind.)
When I conceptualized this photo, I was aiming for something completely different. This was actually an outtake. I was playing around because I needed some shots of the fabric moving. But when I was scanning the photos, I realized I liked this one more than the “real” shots I took. I looked so stiff and uncomfortable in the other ones while this one seemed more naturaly and flowy. It’s probably because I wasn’t too focused on having to pose, I was more concerned about getting a good shot of my dress. (I did have to get my right hand from another photo though, since it didn’t look as graceful in the original after I threw the fabric.)
Photoshop brushes (hair, birds, mist) are from http://www.obsidiandawn.com
I’m finally uploading this. I don’t know why I keep forgetting about it. I shot and edited this around the second week of October, but for some reason I never got around to posting it. My parents were on a Japanese cruise back then, and I was jealous so I decided to do a little cruising of my own – with the power of Photoshop of course. I figured it would be lonely to go by myself, so I asked Mr. Bear to come with me. He’s appeared several times in Ezra’s and my past 52-week projects, and I figured it was time for him to make a comeback.
I’m always excited to shoot and edit my self portrait around this time of year. As you know, I have a slight fascination with darker conceptual images. I try to stay away from too much blood and anything too gruesome, but I love eerie and haunting pieces.
I actually had something else planned for this year. For the past few years, I’ve been uploading some dark stuff around Halloween, so this year I wanted to do something a little lighter. But after shooting and editing it, it didn’t feel right. I’m still going to upload it, but I decided that it shouldn’t be my Halloween SP. So as soon as I got home last night, I shot and edited this.
I asked Ezra what she thought and she said it was scary and perfect for Halloween. I was happy until she told me that she’s mostly creeped out about the thought of having five of me around. Hmph.
Another origami-inspired self portrait. I had to make several of these paper planes for the little kids during our origami exhibit last month. I figured I might as well turn the experience into something useful.
I’m still 5 weeks behind on this project. I know I keep saying this, but I do have a few pictures ready for posting, I just keep forgetting about them. Gah~
My title are lyrics from B.o.B’s song called Airplanes.
I dropped the ball on this project again. I was doing pretty well too T__T I thought I would finally be able to catch up, but things got really busy at work again so I had to focus on that. Also, I suffered from food poisoning for a while and I barely had enough energy to get up, let alone edit photos. Fortunately, I’ve recovered completely but we all know how difficult it is to continue doing something once you stop for a bit. I need to get back on track and regain some momentum. I can do this!
I really like the quote that inspired this photo. I may be under a lot of pressure at the moment, but I’m beginning to realize that it’s all about the attitude. I may not be a naturally optimistic person, but I’m doing my best to see the good in every situation. There are loads of things to do at work, but I think I’m handling it pretty well. I’ve been enjoying making To-Do lists every day. It helps me focus on what I need to finish and prioritize important tasks. (Maybe I should include posting my self portrait in these lists to help me catch up.)
Quote in the title is by Lou Holtz
I found this quote online and I liked it so much that I had to shoot a self portrait based on it. I just wish I knew who said it.
This quote really spoke to me because I’m one of those people who are so scared of making mistakes that sometimes I choose not to things because I’m terrified of failing. It’s a horrible way to live, I know. This way of thinking has stopped me from doing a lot of things in the past – and I feel like I’ve missed out on so much because of it. But lately, I’ve been trying to convince myself that mistakes happen all the time. As long as we own up to them and correct them, then it should be fine. It’s all part of the learning process. Life goes on, right?
Originally I planned on holding an eraser, but I couldn’t find one that day so I ended up using a pencil. It bothers me a bit that my hands look a little awkward (since I was holding a thin stick in place of the pencil when I took the picture) but I actually really like the final image. The notebook I’m “standing” on is one that I used during my MS studies in 2009. It was for my Thermodynamics class – one of my hardest subjects back then. But it was also one of my favorite subjects since we had a really good teacher and my classmates were all very kind and helpful :)
I managed to squeeze in a quick and simple photomanipulation. I made the heart using cloud brushes from Obsidian Dawn.
I shot 4 self portraits yesterday, but I don’t know when I’ll be able to edit them, or if I will be able to use them all. Sometimes I’ll shoot something and end up really liking it at first, but during the editing process I’ll realize that it’s terrible and I end up scrapping it. Hopefully that won’t happen with these photos because I spent a lot of time conceptualizing them.